You smoke a little more every morning, and drink a little more every afternoon, and need a little more sedative every night.
You’re beginning to feel unnecessary too.
Karen/16/Singapore/It's complicated
my boyfriend, friends, texting, starbucks, neoprints, victorian style, quotes, photography, graphics, late nights, hugs and kisses, brands, blue sky, songs on the radio, sleeping, green tea, inside jokes, laughing, stitch!, colours, inspirations, baking, birthdays, irony, and all the silly things in life♥
Firstly thank you all for being there for me on my birthday, as well as the rest of the year. It is my first ever birthday get-together in singapore, and I couldn't have asked for more. I am so grateful to all who showed up and gave a helping hand, who had a great time and enjoyed my birthday with me :) It felt awesome to be surrounded by all my friends! But next year I'll probably opt for a smaller dinner party, book the date y'all!
I loved and treasure every single one of your wishes and presents, they were all very wonderfully thought out :) thank you<3
The stress somehow is still pressing on me, I need a relaxing day with Joel, sun-tanning at the beach or something. Time seems to pass me by so quick, yet I don't know, it feels like there's something else I'm suppose to be doing. I guess my mind needs a detox too. And I just get so stressed when my mom is coming around, (all my close friends knows what I mean!) Anyway I've just gotta get it into my head that I am allowed to enjoy my holiday and I should. Cleaning up the mess shouldn't get in the way till the morning after.
On a brighter note, I have cleared out my room and redecorated it! I feel better now and although after last night my room is a battlefield but its so nice to have an uncluttered room. I have stars hanging from my window and a nice new curtain! :) got a new pink laundry basket too & a new pink chair :) feeling quite chuffed yes :)
Today I was determined to not wake up till I get to see Joel, but my plan failed! Had a really terrible night of sleep and a literally heart stopping nightmare. It was scary and I was up at seven on a saturday morning. Don't know what was messing up my mind I could not fall back asleep till half past ten... Then I woke up to see four messages! Jo came over for lunch, attempting to finish that giant tray of food from last night. (impossible.) Tim came over too and size helped. Found out some certain person thinks we're queers. Sometimes you just can be so, so wrong about people. Anyway I wasn't all that bothered, and I got dressed and made way to Marina. (Not before watching the biggest loser S2 marathon!! & some Barney + Fimbles!) Traded and got YS' pressie! :) Walked around in excruciating pain (fuck high heels) then waited for my dear's arrival.
I wanted to give him a surprise and a treat to a buffet in marina square :) I got a bit mad when he told me he drank loads of water and wasn't going to eat :( but then I persuaded him so he ate with me hehe. I had to go run and grab a pair of slippers though since I wasn't ready to walk around barefooted in a restaurant. This meal costed a bomb, literally. But it was worth it to see my dear's satisfied look hehe ♥
Had a stroll along Esplanade seaside afterwards :) Then decided to walk to the merlion since none of us have been there in person, (I know right lol). Some asshole was making some face at us and I gave him my deadly stares (lol) he totally ko-ed. We then walked one round the central district, passing the supreme court and funan, to the bus stop near raffles city. I myself can't believe we walked so much! We had a little bit of proper talking today, I'm very pleased :) Then my baby had to go home :( :( but it was a good day ♥
Its so nice to have an evening with him like this, even though I get high then soonafter upset (at some random shit) I know he will always be there to take care of me ♥ Super mushy I know but he's mine :)
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hahahhaha retarded & abrupt end to my long post! Hope all of you are having a good holiday so far, :) And I am proud of myself because I made such a detailed post about one silly day in my life. Bubbye!
Sometimes I wonder, why are there so many misunderstandings in this world. All these relationships broken by circumstances, what gives? I believe that everything happens for a reason, that everything will work out for the bigger picture in the end. But am I just living in a cradle far away from the grounds of reality or is everything meant to be? I never understood fully just how much anything means to me, until I have lost my grip on them and I quietly mourn for my loss. Words dropped at the wrong times, those wrong turns and tiny cracks in the heart, eventually building up to the fall of something great, something so precious like a fragile piece of happiness. Were the mistakes in my life meant to be, or did they led me down to the path of no return? Love is a piece of cloud, or a state of mind, its unreal and untouchable, yet such a longing springs from our hearts. You never know whether you have it, the real thing, until you lose it. That is the tragedy of life.
Hello all, since people have started asking me what I wish for my birthday! :) , I shall continue my wishlist. Please do not see this as an act of... I dunno, bitchyness. haha enjoy!
love the leggings there yum!
1. Heels heels and more chic heels! (newlook topshop woohoo) edit: dream shoes (saw it @ wisma) clicky! 2.comfy oversized off shoulder grey/black sweater 3. pretty leggings 4. topshop things; dresses, wallet, rings etc! 5. rings rings oversized rings (roses!) size L fyi. 6. 500 Days Of Summer soundtrack 7. strangely, a starbucks tumblr! 8. a pair of real leather flatss. 9. a new scent. was thinking juicy or ck 10. holga camera/ fisheye sil vous plait! 11. nice tongue studs baby (newsflash just got it done!) 12. a cute shade of lipstick! (neon pink/nice red) 13. loads of fruit pastiles!!! 14. stitch stuffed toys <3 (one @ far east for 99bucks its super big!!! its the love) 15. longchamp long handle baby 16. a nice big brown leather belt with super nice vintage buckle 17. nailtique formula 2! :( :( :( exclusively in u.s. 18. pretty handbag 19. cash vouchersss topshop zara new look forever21!!!~ 20. OPI nail polish esp the tiny ones so cute!! 21. babybliss curlers 1&1/4 barrels 22. chi silk fusion <3 23. PINK STRAIGHTERS! (hair bliss or CHI!! the pink camo one my my) 24. union jack clutch/bag/shoes
ps attached an i am dreaming list: 1. blackberry 2. lv tote 3. gucci handphone strap 4. river island dress 5. chanel bag 6. steve madden heels 7. ticket to tvxq concert T_T 8. juicy wallet
Hello friends and strangers! I've decided not to update my wish list but to ask a few questions!
1. What do you about my birthday party this year being on the 20/11/09 be held at my house? It'll be a BBQ & pool party!! alcohol included if you want (you can and are encouraged to bring your own / sponsor!) . Would you like that? Any suggestions / opinions?
2. What about after party? CQ or demsey anyone?
3. oh and um, themes?
Need people's response like as much as possible just comment below or twitter me or fb me DM me whatever!
And wow can you believe exams are starting tomorrow? This is so very unreal :( ! I hope everyone's been revising good and is all hyped and ready for the papers!! PS we should all revise together if its not too late!! I haven't been studying much... and my mom is coming back this friday oh my god. I am going to die (better cause I avoided the examsszz) okay I should stop all the rambling!
oh last question, have anyone experienced like you have a tune or part of an unknown song stuck in your head, then you go try and find it on your itunes / ipod and you get it right the first time? like youre not even that familiar with that song? its freaky! But kind of cool at the same time.
